Internal Server Error

Today I went to find a video on YouTube and this message came up:

500 Internal Server Error

Sorry, something went wrong.

A team of highly trained monkeys has been dispatched to deal with this situation.
It made me laugh.

I feel a little like there is an internal server error going on in my life... I feel overwhelmed, my house is a mess, my daughter is just starting to get over being sick and my son is just starting to get sick again, we had "student-led conferences" today which really tell you nothing, my children all have bathroom issues that we just can't seem to solve, the laundry is piled up to the sky, and because my household has basically been sick for the past 2 months I am falling behind on some of the reviews I have scheduled. It is just kind of hard to test products with a wailing three year old hanging on you at all times.

Perhaps YouTube would like to dispatch their team of highly trained monkeys to my house next!

On the up side my daughter went to sleep on her own tonight, without me in the room. That doesn't happen very often. She was over tired so that helped... she did cry but not outrageously so and because my husband is at a meeting and I was dealing with the boys at the time I had to ignore her. And she went to sleep. As I knew she would.

I don't like ignoring my kids when the cry... it just isn't something I do. No... let me rephrase that... I don't like ignoring my kids when the cry for real. The fake crying I ignore all the time. I just feel like crying because you don't want to be alone is a totally legitimate reason to cry.  I felt a little bad for Olivia- she IS sick after all. But she is just fine.

I think I am trying to hold on to her "baby-hood" as long as I can. She is my last baby and even though she is three I am just not quite ready for her to grow up. I am totally willing to endure a little extra neediness on her part just so I can have a little more time with her.

And don't worry, she is learning her independence and all that good stuff... I just genuinely enjoy being with her as she falls asleep. It only takes a couple minutes out of my day and it is just plain nice. I did it with my boys too when they were younger and they both fall asleep on their own and sleep perfectly fine all the way through the night with no issues whatsoever now and have for years so I am not worried that she won't be able to do the same. I realize the popular ideas of the day disagree with that but I really don't care. I strongly believe that each family is different and you do what works for your family. This works for us.

Anyway the point is I don't want to clean my house tonight so I am going to enjoy my three sleeping children and quiet house and watch "The Blindside" instead. I think I will also drink some nice herbal tea to calm my freaky nerves. A bowl of ice cream may also be involved. My waistline is a lost cause anyway :) .

Where is that team of highly trained monkeys anyway?


Patricia Ward said…
Oh Tara, that is a lot to handle! I am happy to hear Olivia is on the mend. I miss you all. Wish u were here. Kisses & hugs.
Tanya said…
I have awarded you the Beautiful Blogger Award...come on over and check it out!
Amanda Daybyday said…
I've been commenting a lot on your stuff tonight as I sit and try to kill time until I can fall asleep. You have FAR more patience than I. Finn cries herself to sleep more than I care to admit. I worry I'm scarring her. But I try to stay with her until she settles sometimes and it just doesn't work. Or, well, I just don't have enough patience to see it through.
Shash said…
I didn't do well with the idea of letting kids cry themselves to sleep. They even slept with us until they would sleep in their own beds, on their own. I did the very same thing with my last too. The loosing the baby thing is very real to me too. I love their independence that they're gaining but don't at the same time.

Hang in there girl! If I find any monkeys, I'll send them your way!
Becky Mayerle said…
Thanks for the lovely rendition of the life and times of makes me miss you. Would have loved to come and share the tea and ice cream and movie with you. love ya

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